Monday, March 29, 2010

Weigh In!

I'm happy to report that the scales moved in the right direction again! 268.4!! Pretty good, I guess. I didn't have a very good week but my weekend was decent. I worked all weekend and chose to make good choices. Hopefully, I can continue this week. My goal that I have set is to reach 265 by April 1st. That gives me 3 days to lose 3.4 pounds. Can I do it? I probably can if I really try. I need to get some exercise in though. I'll post my weight on April 1st no matter what it is. I have in my head I'd like to lose 10 pounds a month with 265 being my first goal. I can hardly believe that I'm thinking 255 by the end of April, 245 by the end of May, etc., etc. How many times do I have to do this? I need to get it done.

I don't really have much of a support system and find it so hard to do this. Everyone wants to sabotage me and I am weak. I try to be strong but just can't. I read different blogs and think about how they've worked so hard and are now just a few pounds away from goal and here I am MORE than I was when I started reading them. Oh well, no sense beating myself up.... I need to just DO IT!!!! The warmer weather is coming and there is absolutely no reason why I can't go out for a walk or a bike ride except for the fact that I'm too fat and uncomfortable, but only work will help that. I really think I need to go speak to a professional that deals with overeating. This is obviously an addiction. Maybe I'll look into that. We have EAP (Employee Assistance Program) at work that is free and offers all kinds of help. I'll see if there's anyone who deals with this sort of thing.

Gotta run ... errands to do. This is my one day off till Friday, so I need to get a move on.

Have a good week everyone!!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Weigh In!

Well, I delayed getting on the scales this morning because I didn't have a very good weekend. I did a bit of bingeing on Sat night and then Sunday was a good day until the evening when I decided I needed junk at 9 p.m. I watched a movie and ate bread with cheese melted on it under the broiler. Obviously, I'm craving carbs. :( Later on around 11:30 I ate a chocolate bar. Well, actually it was 2 of them since they come 2 in a pack. One of my favorite bars is a Hershey's Heath bar. I pick them up when I'm in the U.S. since we can't buy them here in Canada. I have eaten 2 (4) of them in 2 days. Anyway, the scales said 271.7. I was pleasantly surprised with this. Yes, they are still up from before my trip but definitely down from when I came home.

Gotta run .... off to work.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Going Down!

Well, I gave in and weighed myself Tuesday after my last post. I was 278.8. Holy shit!!! A lot of that was fluid I know. I was good most of the week eating wise. I didn't do any exercise but was pretty careful eating. Friday morning I weighed in at 271.3. I was happy with that! Yesterday wasn't a very good day though. I had a bit of a binge last night. This morning the scales said 272.2. That's OK, I'm going to get right back at it today. We've had beautiful weather here all week and I was planning on going for a walk this weekend. Today it is cold and dreary. I just might still get out there and try to get in a few miles. I'll try to behave this weekend and then put my official weigh-in on Monday morning.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I'm home!

Well, I'm home after a long, long drive from Florida. You should have seen my calves and ankles. They were so full of fluid that it was almost funny, except for the fact that they hurt like hell. I could hardly walk. It must have been from sitting in the car for 15 hours one day and 13 the next, not to mention all the crap I ate while away. Eating out is not good for me! Anyway, there will be no weigh in until Monday. Then I will see what the damage is. The swelling is going down pretty good though. Let's hope it continues. I've been doing not too bad on the eating side of things yesterday or today.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Getting tired!

Well, I'm down to my second last day in Florida. Then we have a 2 day drive to get home. I have to admit that I am looking forward to getting home. I should know better. When I eat crap all the time, I feel like crap. I've been eating badly for 2 weeks (or more) and am starting to feel gross!!! I have so much fluid on board from all the extra sodium. I'll be glad to get home and start eating properly. I'm not going to weigh in on Monday morning. I think I'll wait until Tuesday. Hopefully after a day of careful eating and drinking my water I might lose a bit of the fluid. Wish me luck with that! lol! After sitting in the car for 2 days I can only imagine how bad that weigh in will be.!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Soaking up the sun!!!

I'm down in Florida soaking up some sun. It hasn't been that warm but good enough. I haven't been dieting at all so nothing to post here. I'm hoping that I can at least not gain TOO much while here. I'm doing a fair bit of walking so hopefully that's helping. I'll really need to get back at it and strict about it on my return home. I have another week here and all the food and drink are not helping me. Anyway, I'll be back next week and post the bad news then.